Wheres my light ????

its been so0 Long that i havent felt that inner shiver
you feel when you get excited wen yur wit that person
or when your lover hits the right spot

No not juz that spot but the mean spot
your heart && soul

No i didnt turn cold hearted
Yes there was a time that i was isolating myself
but that start long ago

i juz havent seen that inner light
in anyone i have met YET

i believe that . . . .
i dont think ima find "my right one" for right now
this year . . . at least

i want to miss somebody
no not juz anybody but the right one
for right now & tomorrow . . . aint it funny

Saddly. . . . its true

i guess i got lose in my broken road
that was pointing to my light . . . to you

[Ice Walls]

Lost between 4 ice walls
that slowly but faster then before
blocks my heart & soul

i only chose to lock those who hurt me
& chose not to love me
as long as breathe

But now as if i have no control
wanting to locking them in
I'm locking in myself without knowing

it started 1 by 1
but then they started to double
& without knowing I'm almost fully locked

in the box i sit on sand alone
& i lose my toes in the sand
i stare at the darkest ocean & sky

the sky is empty with no moon nor stars
i cant make out the line where the ocean & sky meet
the ocean waves are splashing as if they where mad at the sand

in the box theirs no emotion
no sadness, anger, happiness nor . . .
at least not for myself

?!?!?

. . . . . .

who knws??

cuz shyt i dont!!

By: Marta o_O (i think)

The Mouth oF *August*

August started wit 2 enemies becoming secret Friends

which means more secrets we breathe

drama in near future

School,Bank,papers & apartment

had me/us all over the place

yet I'm two steps away of beginning my NEW life

it scares me to Death!

i Hate the beginning of starting a NEW school alone!

everything feels so right that's there

has to be a BAD about 2 Boom!!

any sec!!!

I Love you . . . yes i Do LOve Her

Yes Marta said it

But WAIT!!

b4 y0u think that way I LOve HEr

the way i Love y0u & those other

So no i dnt see it in that way anymore

& no we haven't done it again

But if . . .

IF!! we do it'll stay in the same wit Her & i

You heLp make me

your cellz are runin thro mine

but you sit there

dnt help someone thatz part of you

Yet!!

you stand & give anything to them

For a 2 sec of FUN!

HoE

i think i want to become

weLL at least something aLong the line

But no one approve

Of these step im followin to pain Less

i choice not to be under the same speLL

with anyone eLse . . . at least for NOW!!

HoE?!?!

GirL no Boy with GirLsh as weLL

Thatz Me

0oh Lucky ME

more complicated then College math
more bi-polar then this fuckin wealther

how can you speak like the sun didnt set on the wrong side
once the golden poisen flowin through y0ur mind

then flip faster then a co0kin pancake
& lie more then future presidents

Lock away y0ur true emotion so deep
like hidin $1o0,o0o,o0o away from taxes

pride so high that the sun is closer to us
carry your act so strong for Fakez & yourself

you seem still to have one skill down pack
how to get under my skin

Silence to smilez & life speakin to stupidest
guess you shouldnt wait for that battery

[]so i started writin this like 2 dayz ago but neva finish it & now im stock big time . . . itz to0 much in me[]

? Question Mark ?

i would love to write but DAMN my mind is ALL over the place seriously

My pass weekend=

Coronas, Grey Go0se, AC, UnForgetable Time, Camara, Music, Lap Dancez, JACUZZI, Beach,Videoz, . . . .

The week []so far[]

Coronas, Kidz, Papers, Taxes, Loadz, Confusion, Ho0kah, Wordz, Music, . . . .[] still goin []

}{wen i get home i will write like 3 blogz}{

Drained

Drained . . . . (X_x)