Sex

i was watching this movie named "Love Sick" [true story] it was about a woman that was addicted to sex. She was married & been with her husband for 5 years, the hold time they are together she slept with over 1o0 men [mosts more then once]. it made her feel Loved,numd,full & feel like a go0d girl. She alwayz felt bad before walking in the Hotel & walking in her house after "making Love".

This moive to0k me back to a conversation i had with two of my friends [almost a year ago]. They didnt know if they were addicked to sex or if they are [was] normal?! So . . . they asked me o_0 [how should i know right] but i sat & thought about it & just got confused. Because im a person that can live without stressing about sex. Now im not saying that it isnt go0d [bcuz we all know it is] but lo0k i was on a sex diet [LoL . . . yeah believe it] for a year & it wasnt easy nor the less hard, it was more about control then anything. i haven been sexless since May 17,20o8 [the day of my birthday party] & trust me i havent had a orgasmon seen then nor have i tried. My friends & family dont understand why i did it & to tell y0u the truth i dont have a straight answer for that question. All i know is that i did it bcuz i needed time for myself,try to understand myself a lil better [then what i do already] & to watch everyone else in there romance happiness & saddness. Now its May 27,2o09 & im fine [yeah yeah of coruse i have my horny Days but i learned how to control it]. It Funny how people though i was going to die or something [LoL] but

im off my diet now & not in a rush to do it & if i was ill would had felt

as it was a waist of time.

So back to the question my friends asked me that day, the reason i got confused was bcuz these things was running through my mind --> one night stands, Love, flirtation, scared, one person, passion, sex, affection, Love making , faithful, & . . . . [& so on] but the thing is are y0u having sex for the affection, bcuz y0u want to feel loved, y0u fear being alone or bcuz it makes y0u feel different but a go0d different?!? So which one of these say your addicted to sex??

How about . . . . maybe all or none o_0 this i do know everyone is different & have our own unique way of handling thing. i don't believe they were [are] addicted to sex. They just like it & maybe felt lonely at the time.

CT VaCa

So i went to CT [from Sunday to Monday afterno0n] with my friend, her parent & her Baby sister. i had a blast, everyone was nice to me like if i was part of the family. But the most part i like of the trip was feeling like i was in a full family with both parents. Laughing,sharing old stories, looking out for each other [it was kool to live that way]. i have both parents in my life but my dad live in DR & i use to see him every summer [i havent went for almost 4 years already]. But even if i would had still been going every summer its not the same bcuz when we all go to DR we never have family time [like both parents,me , my sister & brother] anymore bcuz he's always to busy now. At first it was a lil weird but then i started liking the time i spent with her & her parents.

i learned alot about my friend [more then what i already knew] bcuz her momz kept telling me baby stories of her that made my friend blush all krazy [her face will turn red LoL -kuTe]. 0oh. . . & my friend is a drama Queen LoL now i know where she gets it from [her momz LoL] but shes not as bad as my friend [but i still heart her] even tho she hit the wrong step a couple times.

CT was Fun & all but i will never live the i guess bcuz im to use to the city [its a nice place to get away & get reLax] =]

First One

HoLa [Hi]

ok . . . so i thought of doing this a couple times but when i was about to create one i always ended saying ugh . . . but for some reason i did it today. i dnt know if its bcuz i been having more then the usably in my mind or i just want to write my thought bcuz i notice it helps with my stress =].

But anywho yall are welcome to leave me comments if y0u like.

Ima be posting anything that been running back & forward in my mind and things that happen to me that day or week [spot light moment only - of course]

. . LaTerz . .