Next Morning

i rest my eyez and mind
so i woundnt feel the same by the next sunrise
i fell deep deep into a dream that
look like and felt like reality
so much like reality that my mind
refuses to remember by this time
i slept between someone arms
and joke around here, there and in the morning
to see if the pain falls off my skin
but yet i still am cryin deep inside
pretendin pretendin looks so far for today
i feel anger for myself
and for him but at him
im puttin him between two movin walls
that if i juz walk alway they automatically will STOP
yet i dont cuz itz not understandable how close
we gotten in six month and im scared
yes scared cuz he mite turn around like they did
scared of that 5 letter word . . . . TRUST
i dont want to hand it away like gum anymore
my life went from drama free
to like one of them bad movies
that never seem to end
i hear my mother yelling in the back of my head
"MARTA YOU TOo NICE . . . DONT TRUST FRIENDS LIKE FAM
which is true . . . well at least most of it . . .
cuz famz give me there back as well
im all of the place and with no stop anytime soon
saddly . . . .